Sacred Sparkle

My life is a thrilling wonderful adventure! I LOVE everything God has called me to do. Just because I love it doesn't mean it’s easy. It’s a hard path but everyday I am learning to trust and lean on God more and more. He truly knows what is best for me and where I will be the most happy.

Everyday I am overflowing with joy. Even when stressed or faced with seeming impossible situations. I thrive on it because I know that it's Jesus' strength and energy working through me to get it all done. I have realized I can not live this kind of life without Him. I am so honored to be a channel in which His love and power can flow through to change people’s lives and the world. It is the most beautiful, fulfilling work! I adore it!

I want to wake up each morning and EXPECT Jesus to guide, direct, speak, and lead my life. My prayer lately has been for Jesus to create in me joy, beauty and a loving radiance that pours out on everything and everyone around me. I want to create beauty all around me- no matter where I am. With the beauty and radiance of my True Love, Jesus Christ. This Savior who brings so much beauty, joy, and love in my life I can't help but want to do the same in the lives around me.

"Everything is pure to those whose hearts are pure" Titus 1:15

"Guard your heart more than anything else, because the source of your life flows from it." Proverbs 4:23

This past year I have been learning that what matters most to God is where your hearts at. You can do Mother Teresa good deeds but if your heart is not in the right place I think all those good deeds are a waste. If your heart is pure and true the natural outflow will be pure, true and godly things. If I want the things in my life to be pure I must start with my heart. My heart is the wellspring of my life. Everything flows from it. I want to be 100% sure that Jesus is the King of my heart.

God you have called me to impossible task that I cannot do on my own. I need to fully surrender my life (knowing I will never get it back) to you in order to do the things you have called me to do.

"Rescue those who are unjustly sentenced to die;
save them as they stagger to their death.
Don’t excuse yourself by saying, “Look, we didn’t know.”
For God understands all hearts, and he sees you.
He who guards your soul knows you knew.
He will repay all people as their actions deserve." Proverbs 24:11-12

When I read, "unjustly sentenced to death" I think of...

*Millions of hungry children and orphans in the world. Helpless to find food and they are "unjustly sentenced to death" because of that.

*Child Soldiers in the LRA who are "unjustly sentenced the death" of their souls.

*Victims and Slaves of Temple Prostitution and Human Trafficking who are "unjustly sentenced to death" of their purity and innocence.

*Suicidal Teens/Children who are so unloved, feel unworthy, and worthless that they take their own life. "unjustly sentenced to death"

I could keep writing the list forever. These are just some of the top things that have been weigh heavily on my heart. My eyes have been opened. Now that I know I am responsible.

*Rewrote a quote in my own words and made more directed to my calling. Based on a quote by William Booth (founder of the Salvation Army)*

The day I got the unloved orphans of the world on my heart and caught a vision of all Jesus Christ could do with them, that day I made up my mind that God would have all Heidi Johnson there was. And if there is any power in the Heaven on Earth ministry today, it is because God has had ALL the adoration of my heart, all the power of my will, and all the influence of my life.

The need is great. But the passion God has placed within my heart is strong. He will lead and be with me every step of the way. HIS strength, HIS power, HIS love, HIS energy are what will change the world. Lord, let me be a channel for you to work through.

Depending on my Almighty God

Had a fabulous birthday yesterday. So simple and just overflowing with love :) It was perfect!

I want to personally thank everyone who was praying for me as I waited to see if God would change my parents hearts about letting me go to Colorado to the Missionary Orphan Conference there...well prayer truly does move mountains and if God's Will for you is to do something even if it seems impossible let me tell you HE WILL MAKE IT POSSIBLE!!

As you can probably guess my 17th birthday present is a flight to Colorado and hotel and being able to go the Conference! I know if God can make all this happen I have Absolutely NO doubt in my heart or mind and that God will continue to work everything else out.

"Deep in your hearts you know that EVERY promise of the Lord your God has come true. Not a single one has failed!" -Joshua 23:14b

As much as I am so thankful for God and all your prayers I am also so grateful for my amazing parents who have had to go through so many adjustments and learn to trust in God's plans for my life that are not traditional and not what they had planned for me. The love and support from my parents means so much to me because I know they don't always understand why I have to do the things I do (Gosh, most the time I don't even know why either!) This love and support I get from them while I try to live in God's Will and not theirs or my own is the best gift they have given me. I am so grateful and extremely blessed. And I hope they know there love is matched back :)

Read this today for my devotion and it just spoke to my heart...
God Calling:
"Expect to encounter adversity in your life, remembering that you live in a deeply fallen world. Stop trying to find a way that circumvents difficulties. The main problem with an easy life is that it masks your need for Me. When you became a Christian, I infused My very Life into you, empowering you to live on a supernatural plane by depending on Me.
Anticipate coming face to face with impossibilities: situations totally beyond your ability to handle. This awareness of your inadequacy is not something that you should try to evade. It is precisely where I want you-the best place to encounter Me in My Glory and Power. When you see armies of problems marching toward you, cry out to Me! Allow Me to fight for you. Watch Me working on your behalf, as you rest in the shadow of My Almighty Presence."

On a day to day basis i feel like I am being delt things so beyond my ability to handle. But that just it…there is no way I could live the life I am living without Christ. He is the one that gets me through it all. And so instead of feeling lost, confused, tired. I need to realize that Christ is working on my behalf. He wants to help me live this life; to win these daily battles. I have to stop trying to do this on my own strength because it is impossible. I NEED Jesus. I wouldn't want it any other way. This life is not easy. But everyday I am reminded how much I need Jesus in my life. I have to depend on my Almighty God to get me through or I will not get through.

Every day I want to live my life in such a way that I have no other choice but to depend on Christ. That is so hard to do living in a country of abundance and comfort. But it is not impossible. I daily see how hard it is to depend on God here and I am constantly on my knees begging Him to help me stay strong and depend on Him.

"My precious Daughter, there is NOTHING we can't overcome."

I am faced with difficulties that are so beyond me. Yet, God uses me as a channel to impact lives and touch hearts. It’s the biggest honor. I am so unworthy of God using me in this way. Because God could touch these peoples hearts and lives without me. He doesn’t have to use me...but He chooses to use me. I am crying as I write this just realizing how much God loves me and believes in me. How He loves letting me help him advanced His Kingdom.

"Do you have the gift of helping others? Do it with ALL the strength and energy that God supplies. Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ. All glory and power to him forever and ever! Amen.
" ~ 1 Peter 4:11

Friends, know that God believes in you. God loves YOU! God wants to use you!!! Not because He can't do this work without you but because He loves you and believes in you SO much. I believe in you too. I believe that with God you can change the world. I believe God has plans for your life that are so amazing and an adventure of a life time. Lets us believe and love each other the way God believes and loves us.

"NEVER underestimate the power of believing in someone. And NEVER forget that God is the ultimate Believer. in. YOU!.

Regardless of what has been done. God desperately believes in you." ~Beth Haley

My thoughts on Feb 25

*Somehow this didn't post when I first tried to post this on February 25.*

I learned a HUGE lesson this week (one that I feel like I have to learn over and over). It definitely is one of my biggest struggles in my faith walk. I love to have plans and I make plans constantly. And then I hold on to my plans with everything I have. God seriously has to pry them out of my hand. It's a painful but necessary process. It would be so much easier if I would just learn to trust in the plans that God has for me. I need to willingly let go of my plans and make it easier for God to take me where His Will for my life is.

Again I realized today that my life is a thrilling adventure. God has me living a Set Apart life. It the kind of life he calls us all to live. But oh I am only at the beginning. I have so many lessons to learn, ways to grow, and lives to impact and change eternally. My prayer to God this past month has been: Lord, Make me into a beautiful warrior, waging war on poverty, injustice, and the darkness of this world.

Don't imagine that I came to bring peace to earth! I came not to bring peace, but a sword.~Matthew 10:34

With God by my side I will go to the wolves (read Matthew 10). I will love radically, speak boldly, and live fearlessly. I will keep fighting till the day I die. I cannot sit here in my world of comfort and safety while BILLIONS of people are on the road to eternal hell, people are dying from hunger, powerless children and women are being continually raped and beaten, there are 147 million orphans in the world who are in dying need of love, people treated unjustly, and a world and church that cannot see its own darkness and lukewarm-ness.

But God called to me in the night..."on earth as it is in heaven...Heaven on earth" Can my sinful, weak, little self leave earth a little more like heaven? I believe anything is possible with God who gives me strength.

The call is dangerous. The call is overwhelming. The call is a fight to the death of our fleshly bodies. Everything is at stake. But Jesus said, "Do not be afraid, for I have overcome the world."

This is where the Love of my life is. This is where He wants to go. This is what He wants to do. And I will follow. I will follow Christ through the sunshines, raindrops, and full on storms. He is the air I breathe. I CAN NOT survive without being where He is.

I know what this means. I know the cost. I have spent far to much time debating and weighing the cost. Here is what I know: I am deeply, fully, crazy in love with Jesus Christ. He has changed me, transformed me, and saved me. I will go with Him wherever. I know it will lead me down a narrow road bloodstained, with tears, hardships, and persecution. However, it is also a road of victory, joy, and a forever love story with Christ.

It is an adventure and journey not many people are willing to take. To be honest, I would have never chosen this path for myself. Even now I have doubts and uncertainties. I do know that Jesus is walking down this path and that's all that matters. End of Story. If Jesus is walking down this narrow path…I will too. He is my Love, my Everything, my Treasure--I have to be where He is.

The first step is the hardest. I need to take the first step today, right now, there is no time to waste. God has given me a radical compassion for these broken people that has put a extreme urgency on my heart. My time to fight has begun. I am about to begin fighting a war that has been waging for centuries. Luckily for me, I know the outcome of this war and you better believe I am going to fight and serve the winning side.

My eyes have been opened; I can no longer live in my life of comfort and abundance. I will go. I will fight. With God I will turn the world upside down to defend those who are helpless. His people, His children; they are crying out for the followers of Christ to save them…to help them…to love them.

When I die I want to be able to say my Savior, my Lord, the Love of my life, used me (I know it's crazy) to make earth a little more like Heaven.