Continuing Down the Narrow Path

Brooke Fraser and Kari Jobe are serenading me tonight. Everything around me is still and peaceful. My worship favorites are gracefully dancing around the room. Making my tiny bedroom seem like sacred ground. The Lord has entered. His presense is thick in my room. Everyone is asleep and it is just me and the LORD tonight. I am beyond excited because after almost two months with out blogging, I have finally felt God call me to once again give an update on this beautifully, chaotic life of mine. I never write a blog just for the sake of posting a blog. In the beginning when I created this blog I promised God that this would be His outlet to use through me. I wouldn’t write anything unless He spoke on my heart to do so. These past two months, God has had me focus all my free time on seeking and worshiping Him. It has been truly mind blowing and God has captivated my heart even more than before. I have gone deeper into the endless frontier of God and grown stronger in my relationship with Him.

Here a mere glance into what I God has been teaching me lately….

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps ~Proverbs 16:9

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and do not depend on your own understanding ~Proverbs 3:5

May 1st. It is the ugly little date for me. No, I don’t have anything against May Day. But, I am not looking forward to National Reply Deadline. For most colleges, May 1st is the deadline to send in your deposit saying that this is where you will be attending in the fall. Prayers for wisdom and guidance would be SO appreciative. I think God is calling me to Seattle Pacific University. It is an incredible private (and small) Christian school hidden away on Queen Ann Hill. I’m not convinced it’s not my future. Not convinced that it is. That is the tricky thing about surrendering your life to Christ. It is not up to you to decided or be convinced. So where will I be going to school in the fall or what is my 5 year plan? Well…just like everything else in my life: where ever God wants me to go.

The LORD directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? ~Proverbs 20:24


I know, O LORD, that a man’s life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps ~Jeremiah 10:23

I keep trying to figure out the new horizons that God is leading me into. I keep trying to fit my future into spreadsheets and To-Do-Lists. But life and especially the future doesn’t fit well in those. It is best to leave them at the feet of our Sovereign Lord.

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think ~Ephesians 3:20

My life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned to me by the LORD Jesus—the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God ~Acts 20:24

I want to make it clear that I know what my purpose is in life. Everyone’s purpose as a follower of Jesus Christ is to spread the Good News, the Gospel, to everyone and make disciples of ALL nations. That is our commission spoken from the mouth of Jesus Christ in Matthew 28: 16-20. I love this! The fact that the last thing Jesus does before going up into Heaven is to give us our purpose for being on earth. I am even MORE in love with Acts 20:24, when Paul says his life is worthless if his life’s purpose is not the Great Commission. The same is true with our lives. Anything we do that is outside of our purpose for being on earth is worthless. Our lives need to be constantly being poured out on worshiping our Sovereign Lord and spreading the Good News.

I do not know my specific calling for this purpose yet. I do not know if God wants me to fulfill my purpose of the Great Commission by being a Worship Pastor, a missionary, start my own non-profit, be a stay at home mom, a Pastor or a Pastor’s wife…etc. God has yet to reveal that to me. However, God has told me that He has planned for me something that I cannot accomplish in my own strength. Ephesians 3:20 says that God has something planned for us that is beyond our wildest dreams. But we can not accomplish or take on this task without HIS power and strength working through us.

Wait on the Lord, be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart ~Psalm 27:14


As I wait on the Lord for my specific life calling for the future; I do know my life calling right now. I love the saying “bloom where you’re planted”. You can lead people to Christ right in your hometown. There are broken, hurting, and lost people in every city, country, and continent on this planet. And do not let Satan try to deceive you and tell you otherwise. You can fulfill your purpose today! Pray and ask God to reveal to you people who need to be reminded or told for the first time about His amazing grace and everlasting love.

I had the privilege this winter to coach basketball at my local Boy’s and Girl’s Club. It was pure joy. I had a blast loving and teaching these precious children about basketball but more importantly how to be good people. The kids at the Boy’s and Girls club have seen heartbreak, pain, brokenness, abuse, and other horrific things that most children don’t. However, for two and a half months I got pour out my life on these kids and say with my words and actions, “You are important to me”. Now I know that that doesn’t make the brokenness of their family situations go away but they do get a glance into the eyes of Jesus. To see the radiant colors of unconditional love through me. I love these kids and do everything I possible can to show them love because, “Christ love compels me” (2 Corinth. 5:14). Remember, that we are the hands and feet of Jesus to those around us. I beg you tonight to not let the people God has placed in your life to leave your presence without feeling like the encountered Jesus.

So much is happening in my life this spring and I am dedicated (God-willing) to be better about blogging and bringing you along on this crazy adventure God has me on. My prayer, as always, is that opening up and sharing my life with you encourages you on your own adventure with Christ. We are all in this together. Okay…I know super cheesy to quote High School Musical but I couldn’t help myself…hehe. I have felt led to post my thoughts and what God has been teaching me about Worship which hopefully will be posted later this week. I am praying for all my friends and brother and sisters in the faith around the world who stumble upon this blog.

Love and Blessings,
Heidi