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College Admissions Essay
A Glance through the Window of my Heart
This morning is evidence that autumn is in full swing. The crisp cold blended with the warm sunbeams kissing my face. It is early enough to watch the sunrise as the whole sky, seemingly out of nowhere, becomes ablaze with the beauty and artisanship of God. I am wearing an oversized sweatshirt and arguably the most comfy yoga pants in the world. With my grande pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks in hand I take in the outdoor scene around me. The trees are overflowing with colors of rich gold and red. Breathtakingly beautiful! These are the mornings when I start to reflect on God’s Word and my life. Today I am prayerfully asking God to give me the courage to stand for the truth, to love radically, live fearlessly, speak boldly and to be obedient to His Will (no matter what)! I know that is asking a lot. But I fully believe that God is faithful to continue transforming and molding me.
I am hopeful that God will keep me humbled and let me spend more time on my knees in adoration prayer to Him than having myself be given worldly glory. Why would someone give a pot an award or praise for being so well made and useful? No, that is silly! You would give the award and praise to the Potter, the Creator of the pot. In the same way, I think it is extremely ridiculous when people do that to me. I am just the pot. My prayer is that when I am given praise, awards, or recognition for something I will immediately show them My Potter’s signature written on my heart. My purpose is not to make myself look good. I am created to bring glory to God, to be less, so that He can be more in me and through me, to boast in my weaknesses. It is incredibly counter-flesh.
As of now I am working on being a registered nurse (RN) by the time I am 21! To be able to help meet spiritually AND physically needs of hurting people all over the world. I am absolutely terrified of blood and guts. However, my passion to serve and help those who no one will help is more powerful than the fear. Nursing would never in a million years be my first choice for a major but as I look back God has been leisurely nudging me down this path. It will not be easy. I am going to have to lean on Him constantly to help me do it. But, I trust that if this is truly the path He wants me to go, He will work everything out and give me all the strength I need.
I have seen firsthand all that God can accomplish through me when I am obedient to His Will. I have learned the difficult but joyfully sweet process of coming day after day to the foot of God’s throne in prayer asking for wisdom or praying for hurting people. He has taught me how to have genuine, selfless, humble, and constant love for others. God has been revealing to me my calling with orphans and the unloved, sick, hurting children all around the world. They have stolen my heart. You may wonder if it is possible to have your heart ache for children you don’t even know. YES! I feel it every day.
“Selfless, humble, constant love is a challenge—I believe it is impossible without God’s gift of a new heart.” –Katie Davis
God has been literally breaking my heart for the orphans and vulnerable children in the world. How can I possibly love these orphans unless I am allowing the Lord to change my heart? God will change my heart by dwelling within me. I cannot save and impact lives for the Kingdom, love fully, and restore and rescue all 147 million orphans around the world…BUT GOD IS ABLE!
In everything I do, I want my heart in the right place. That everything about me: my actions, words, choices, and life would be a striking reflection of Jesus to the world. I want the heart of Jesus. What matters most is where your heart is at and I want my heart to be in His hands. Jesus alone is worthy to sit on the throne of my heart. It belongs to Him. If Jesus takes hold of your heart, He will impact all that flows out of it and I know the results will be incredible. I want a heart that beats for the Lord with an obsessive love no one can take away.
There are some days I can really feel the sting of the life I have chosen. It is a challenge but, extremely worth it. This is what it means to be a follower of Christ. Jesus’ love makes every hardship, struggle, fear and loss all completely worth it!
At the end of life, God will not judge us by our SAT scores, how high our GPA was, how many diplomas we received, how much money we have made or how many great things we have done. We will be judged by this: how we lived our lives, radically loving and serving others and loving God with everything realizing the world is nothing in comparison.
“The fact is NOTHING should concern us more than our relationship with God; it’s about eternity. And nothing compares with that. God is not someone who can be tacked on to our lives” ~Francis Chan (Crazy Love)
An hour and my last sip of coffee later…I am left with this. All the above is what I have been learning and what God has been showing me. It feels good to write it all down. Writing is one of my love languages with God. How God has wired me to process things. It refreshing to write an admissions essay that gives you the chance to be a part of this: a little peek through the window of my heart and my adventure and relationship with Jesus Christ
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