Part 5: Living a Poured out Life

It has been too long without writing. Too long without taking time to stop my busy lifestyle to sit and reflect on all God is doing in my life and in the lives around me. He is working in some BIG ways. It is overwhelming to consider that God is moving here in my Pacific Northwest town like never before, and I get to witness and be apart of the movement.

“My precious Daughter, there is NOTHING we can't overcome."

On a day to day basis i feel like I am being dealt things so beyond my ability to handle. Yet, God uses me as a channel to impact lives and touch hearts. It’s the biggest honor. I am so unworthy of God using me in this way. Because God could touch these peoples hearts and lives without me. He doesn’t have to use me...but He chooses to use me. It is the most beautiful, fulfilling work! I adore it! Everyday I am overflowing with joy. Even when stressed or faced with seeming impossible situations. I thrive on it because I know that it's Jesus' strength and energy working through me to get it all done. I have realized I can not live this kind of life without Him.

I have been waiting for the right time to write this next part of the blog series. This part of the series explores the idea that maybe; just maybe, the best adventure is the one where you spend your days pouring out yourself on the least of these: the orphans, the widows, the sick, the poor, the broken, and the lost in this world.

Remember, I am on this exploration journey with you. To explore the ideas and search through the bible together to find out what it truly means to “Answering the Call to embark on a Set-Apart Adventure”. Friends, know that I am so far from where I should be, where we should be. I am not perfect and fall short everyday of being a reflection of Christ to the world. However, I have a eager heart and serve a perfect God who promises me that He will NEVER give up on me (or YOU), and will finish the work He has started in my heart.

I am confident of this, that the one who began a good work in you will continue to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus. ~~Philippians 1:6
In early January, I did something dangerous, I asked God to break my heart for what breaks His heart. How is this dangerous, you might ask? God loves answering this prayer and when He does YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME! Katie Davis explains it perfectly.

"have you ever sobbed on the floor for Jesus? I mean just followed Him into such an impossible place that you have to fall on your face in hysterical tears over His goodness to you, in awe of his BIGness, just desperately wanting more? Beside yourself over the agony you have caused Him, broken for the things that break His heart, rejoicing in His sacrifice? THAT is my prayer for you today!”
It will turn your whole world upside down. God tells us exactly what breaks His heart over and over again in the bible.

"For I was hungry and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger and you invited me to your home. I was naked and you gave me clothing. I was sick and you cared for me. I was in prison and you visited me. I tell you the truth when you did it to the least of these my brothers and sisters, you did to me.” ~Matthew 25:35-36;40
Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father is caring for the orphan and widow in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you. ~James 1:27
"Rescue those who are unjustly sentenced to die;
Save them as they stagger to their death.
Once our eyes are opened,
we can't pretend we don't know
what to do. God,
who weighs our hearts and keeps
our souls, knows that we know,
and holds us
responsible to act."
(Proverbs 24:12)
When I read, "unjustly sentenced to death" I think of...

*Millions of hungry children and orphans in the world: helpless to find food, dying of PREVENTABLE diseases. They are "unjustly sentenced to death".

*Child Soldiers in the LRA who are "unjustly sentenced the death".

*Victims and Slaves of Temple Prostitution and Human Trafficking who are "unjustly sentenced to death" of their purity and innocence.

*Suicidal Teens/Children who are so unloved, feel unworthy, and worthless that they take their own life. "unjustly sentenced to death"

*The BILLIONS of people who are on the road to eternal hell because they do not know the Gospel. “unjustly sentenced to death”

I could keep writing the list forever. These are just some of the top things that have been weighing heavily on my heart. My eyes have been opened. Now that I know I am responsible. God has given me a radical compassion for these broken people and has put an extreme urgency on my heart. My eyes have been opened; I can no longer live in my life of comfort and abundance. I will go. I will stand up for them. With God I will turn the world upside down to defend those who are helpless. His people, His children; they are crying out for the followers of Christ to save them…to help them…to love them.


“As a follower of Christ: My desire is NOT to be a humanitarian.
My desire is to bring the Kingdom of God here on earth!
My desire is that by doing that other will know Christ by this work!”
~Eric Ludy
The world out there is dark, and desperately needs your starlight. (Phil 2:15)

I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something I can do ~Helen Keller

Moses story has really inspired me this past year. I love how Hebrews 11 describes it. I can relate to his situation. I use to hear God’s voice whisper to my heart to do something about the broken people in this world. But I would hush His voice by saying, “God, you placed me here in America, into a family that is wealthy and lives a comfortable lifestyle. If you didn’t want that life for me then you should have made me be born in a hut in Africa.”

But God placed Moses in the royal family in Egypt and He also told Him to leave the comfortable lifestyle to live among God’s people, the oppressed. God blesses us so that we can be a blessing to others (Genisis 12:2). I pray that I can have the same faith as Moses did to do the same.
By faith, Moses, when grown, refused the privileges of the Egyptian royal house. He chose a hard life with God's people rather than an opportunistic soft life of sin with the oppressors. He valued suffering in the Messiah's camp far greater than Egyptian wealth because he was looking ahead, anticipating the payoff. By an act of faith, he turned his heel on Egypt, indifferent to the king's blind rage. He had his eye on the One no eye can see, and kept right on going. ~Hebrews 11:24-26
We are ALL called to give up our lives. As Jesus prayed to God on the night before He died..."Father is there another way?" The same way we pray and ask God..."Lord, is there another way? Must I go there?"
The answer is: "Go...Do not be afraid...I am with you..."

I don’t know where “going” will lead me. It could lead me to witness and minister to someone down the street or to someone thousands of miles away. Through it all I have the peace of knowing that wherever God sends me He will be right by my side.

Courage is not about knowing the path. It is about taking the first step. I do not know my five year plan; even tomorrow will probably not go as I have planned. I am thrilled and I am terrified, in a good way. Some call it courage. Some call it foolish. I call it faith. Sometimes I walk straight into His arms. More often, I get scared and look down and stumble. Sometimes I almost completely drown. And through it all. He never lets go of my hand. ~Katie Davis